7I came home on my lunch break and cried. I cried b/c I just couldn't take it any more. All morning I worked the window in drive through and listened to how people were going to spend their day. I heard it all...going to the lake, going to the pool, cooking out, graduation parties, and a lot of our customers were headed to the Indian Trail Community Yard Sales. 80 plus yard sales, walking distance from our apartment...the exact way I would have spent my day if I didn't have to work 13 hours.
It's funny b/c I felt like a little kid who cries when they don't get their way. You know, that kid that cries when he can't do something he really wants to do. As we grow up, we mature and realize we can't always get what we want. And normally, if we don't get our way, we don't cry! Well, not today. Today, I just couldn't take it anymore. For the past 10 years I've had to work weekends, so I'm used to not getting to do what I'd like to do (i.e. yard sales, flea markets, cookouts with the fam...) But, today I just couldn't hold the tears back. I just needed some Tab time. For the past week, I've been averaging anywhere from 13-15 hour work days. My schedule has been: work at Starbucks early am (between 5-6:30), get off anywhere from 12:30-3 and then usually have ONE hour in between jobs and then work at the golf club until 8-9:30pm. I'm sorry, but that is one long day! All I want to do when I get home is have a bite to eat, get off my feet and go to bed....and then get up in the morning and do the same thing all over again, day after day. Bless Joe's heart for putting up with me! He's such a sweetheart... he'll cook me dinner and he puts up with my cranky butt when I'm so overtired it's not even funny.
So, long story short, I've been a working machine. I've had no time for myself, no time for Joe. Heck, it's sometimes hard to find time to shower. (I'm a clean person...I shower! but sometimes I'm just sooo exhausted!) So, yesterday I decided to put my two weeks in at the Golf Club yesterday. It was really tough for me to do. I've never had to quit anything before. I guess I quit my last job, but that was different. They had a years notice and it was b/c I was moving out of state, not b/c I didn't like my job and I couldn't handle all the hours. I know Spokane Country Club will easily find a replacement, but a part of me feels like a failure, like I've disappointed them. But, then I have to remind myself, I've been working 65-68 hours a week...and that's crazy! I needed to stop worrying about everyone else and take care of myself! I've learned how important that "me time" really is. And if you don't have it, you start to lose yourself.
So, here is to Summer
A summer I will get to Enjoy:
1.Yard Sales 2.Day trips
3. Cookouts & Cornhole
4.Priest Lake 5.Glacier 6.Running once again
7.Sunsets on our balcony
8.Cocktails by the pool
9.Strawberry pickin' 10.Flea market shoppin'
11.and hopefully a visit from the Fam!
3 comments:
I am really hoping we can add a #12 on that list soon!!!! Hang in there girl:) I am praying like mad! xoxo
Well, even though I'm not the first comment....I just wanted to say that I'm proud of you for doing what you needed to do for yourself. I love you!
GOOD TABBI!!!! Its about time! i told u last time we talked, ur not a failure at all. They will survive without you and you can always work more at starbucks if u need to. Sometimes you need to think about yourself and no one needs to work 15 hour days everyday!!! Love and miss u lots! -Andrea :)
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